movies.

i just recently got a membership to a little video store in town called Videodrome and i have become OBSESSED. i have been going there just about every week. its cheap and accessible and thats dangerous for me hahaha.

Chasing Amy

The Last House on the Left (1972)

Kids

The Wild and Wonderful Whites of West Virginia

i hate the feeling i get when one of my favorite movies starts to get to the end. its like you wish it could go on forever, have an ongoing story line. you think about what the characters would be doing if the movie hadnt ended. its bitter sweet regardless of if the movie ends well or on a more somber note.

alot of things in my life and i guess everyone elses for that matter happen like this. sometimes i feel on top of the world, everything is going perfectly. but on top of the world is a high place to fall from and when i do fall it hurts and it hurts horribly.

but somehow i always manage, i pick my self back up and go head first in to the next situation not thinking or worrying about if its good or bad for me. if it feels good then im in it.

this is something in my life i need to work on. to think more so i dont have to worry about falling from the top of the world and so i wont have to htink about how shitty its going to feel when i hit the ground.